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*single emo tear*

This is post in which I just very simply say that Doctor Who has broken my heart. To pieces.

I started rewatching series 1 last night because I couldn't take the heart ache.



Sep. 22nd, 2011 12:42 am (UTC)
Dude I sat in my house after watching it with no one to talk to about why I felt like I died. My friend was with me and she's just getting into Doctor Who so she really didn't get it but even she kept asking me if I was ok. I WAS FAR FROM OK!

I mean, I got why he left them. I got why he left her. But I'm going to miss them! I don't think this is permanent, not with River running around being all River-y, but I think it's going to be more like when Martha just passed through a few times. I think the Doctor was right when he said that Amy was afraid of going in the house, of seeing what a life settled down with Rory would be like. I also LOVED that the episode was called The God Complex because, lets face it, the Doctor has one. I think he has loved shining as Amy's 'god' and it took the events in the prison to make him realize that her absolute faith in him is going to eventually be the end of her. She followed him into every situation with absolute trust even when he didn't trust himself.

I could go on about this for hours, you know I could. Rewatching the ninth Doctor has made me miss Rose, but in a good way. Seeing her after everyone after made me realize what set her apart. She loved all of it from the very beginning. From the moment she met the Doctor there was no other place she'd rather be but at his side. Martha was always clear that it wasn't her forever, Donna was much older so she had a good bit of life behind her so it was more like the next step for her. With Rose it was the only step. Her biggest issue with his regeneration into 10 was her fear that he wouldn't want her anymore. Amy has always seemed to use the Doctor as a crutch to avoid the things she couldn't deal with. She met him after her parents died and then waited for him for years. He was her escape. He was the fantasy that children have when they think they're adopted and their real parents are rich and famous. When her wedding was looming he was her way out of the finality of it all. After the marriage he was how she kept adulthood from settling in. In the same way that after loosing Rose and destroying Donna Amy was his fresh start, a new person free of everything else he destroyed before he met her. A child who looked at him with innocent and trusting eyes and never ending faith.

Did I mention I love this show?